❤总有一天❤

8 more days, Christmas is here once again. Attended church's 2013 Christmas Production. Crews have been working real hard, but sad to tell that, it doesn't get to me. I don't really understand what is the message all about, but still it's a good show.

15 days down the road, it will be another brand new year. Every new year seems to be the same to me. All I do is, convincing myself it will be a better year ahead, or another self-comforting, it has been a good year back then. Seriously, when will life really gets better for me?

One once said or maybe a few, or even more than that, no point looking or thinking or whatsoever back at the past, you can never turn back the time and all those words that we used to hear from people. Yes, easy said, and don't you know that it's really really hard, i mean EXTREMELY hard to actually get over the past?

 Maybe people should just stop telling me these and LEAVE ME ALONE! It would be better for me.

Every year, it's just the same. For.. my sake (wanted to say something else but I think it's pretty rude, didn't want to use name for granted), when will this come to an end?

A decision made because of your own selfishness 8 year back then, changed my life, lifeless forever, and yet acted like nothing happened. I'm so damn tired! Restless! Hopeless! and bla bla bla! All self-sympathize words! IKR! Ignore me.

走了那么远还是找不到公平。笨蛋，一切本来就不公平！

Let's just put on a mask and continue to "Be Happy".

I AM STRIVING REALLY REALLY EXTREMELY HARD TO GET OVER IT AND LIVE ON!

总有一天，一定会有阳光和彩虹的。

Continue dreaming.

Love,

Alyssa Cross

~xoxo~