❤Midnight❤

At time like this I should be sleeping, well...I couldn't, for no reason I don't know why.First and foremost I feel really bad for rejecting Dear last minute.*I'm really really sorry for sudden changes even though I know that you would understand.Really do hope I could accompany you at bad times!*

I've been skipping cell group and church lately,not only that...I felt rather uncomfortable going for choir practise but thank God when I was up on stage everything changed aka my feelings and emotion.I just felt different despite all the awkward-ness.I couldn't tell why am I having these kind of thoughts,but frankly speaking I don't feel belong to the choir team.However,I am the servant of God,He's still my first priority above everything else.I serve a great God!As a little reward,He never fail to comfort me at all times.Thanks Papa.

I was excited to go to church last weekend,maybe because I haven't been attending church for such a long time,the best part,meeting pastor in person with a little chat I would say*3 hours ++ I felt great and I would love to stay longer but...had an appointment with MyDearS earlier,couldn't skip!

Sorry for the trouble of finding my church.They were given a very brief direction-behind Sunway College near the roundabout!O gosh...what a detail one...but they managed to find me*Applause.

We were all hungry,not knowing where to go, we headed to a nearby Lok-lok...one of my favourite,for a little supper and off we go to TAO! I felt really tired and wasn't in the mood.SO sorry if I've spoilt the outing DearS!

As days pass by,I wanted to update my blog but feel rather lazy to do anything else.It has been a month since my class last started and I wasn't aware what's going on yet!This is really.Thinking about it makes me feel depress.Arrghhh!!!I don't want to go under depression again!It's driving me crazy!I need help Papa!

Daddy called me today,asking whether am I coming back.A real short conversation,I bet he misses me but couldn't say it.O well....daddy has always been man-ly!And mommy is looking forward to meet me next week.I couldn't think of anything other than going back home!I really do need a trip back.I'm feeling rather awful these days=((

Emotionally shut down!I miss you IvyDear!

Love,

AlyssaCross

~xoxo~