❤Midnight❤

At time like this I should be sleeping, well...I couldn't, for no reason I don't know why.First and foremost I feel really bad for rejecting Dear last minute.*I'm really really sorry for sudden changes even though I know that you would understand.Really do hope I could accompany you at bad times!*

I've been skipping cell group and church lately,not only that...I felt rather uncomfortable going for choir practise but thank God when I was up on stage everything changed aka my feelings and emotion.I just felt different despite all the awkward-ness.I couldn't tell why am I having these kind of thoughts,but frankly speaking I don't feel belong to the choir team.However,I am the servant of God,He's still my first priority above everything else.I serve a great God!As a little reward,He never fail to comfort me at all times.Thanks Papa.

I was excited to go to church last weekend,maybe because I haven't been attending church for such a long time,the best part,meeting pastor in person with a little chat I would say*3 hours ++ I felt great and I would love to stay longer but...had an appointment with MyDearS earlier,couldn't skip!

Sorry for the trouble of finding my church.They were given a very brief direction-behind Sunway College near the roundabout!O gosh...what a detail one...but they managed to find me*Applause.

We were all hungry,not knowing where to go, we headed to a nearby Lok-lok...one of my favourite,for a little supper and off we go to TAO! I felt really tired and wasn't in the mood.SO sorry if I've spoilt the outing DearS!

As days pass by,I wanted to update my blog but feel rather lazy to do anything else.It has been a month since my class last started and I wasn't aware what's going on yet!This is really.Thinking about it makes me feel depress.Arrghhh!!!I don't want to go under depression again!It's driving me crazy!I need help Papa!

Daddy called me today,asking whether am I coming back.A real short conversation,I bet he misses me but couldn't say it.O well....daddy has always been man-ly!And mommy is looking forward to meet me next week.I couldn't think of anything other than going back home!I really do need a trip back.I'm feeling rather awful these days=((

Emotionally shut down!I miss you IvyDear!

Love,

AlyssaCross

~xoxo~

❤Get over it❤

16 Oct 2010,I realised that it is finally deleted.I know that when it's gone,it will be gone forever.Every time when I see it,I wonder when will it be gone.Deep down inside there's a fear in me,knowing that somehow someday I won't be seeing it again...and yes it came true.I've tried my best to fix it but nothing will change without a second chance to be given willingly or even having the intention to fix it together.Every now and then I know I've been thinking about it,I've no courage to bring it up again or maybe because of my ego-ness that I couldn't speak a word about it anymore as I've tried so much yet disappointment came around.

Advice from people:There's nothing I can do about it for He will understand that I've try my best!

Some said it will heal through time,I doubt that it will.Although I've been harsh on things,I can't deny that it's something precious to me.And now,all I can say is Goodbye and walk away.

*****A puzzle imperfect without you*****

*****Never look back and farewell*****

Love,

Alyssa Cross

~xoxo~

❤Finally~❤

Finally the internet is here and now I can resume my daily routine with the cyber world.It's been long since I talk about my life.O well...this is what happened...

First and foremost,I LOVE MyLife now!!!Accepted into an awesome university but...for most people,they will say that "Why on earth did you choose THAT uni???Are you out of your mind?" Being a city girl for such a long time,knowing every bits and corner of the city explored alone...some think that I can never survive here.

Frankly speaking,yes I do miss home.It's the third week of my university life and for the past 2 weeks,I was back to my hometown but today...I'm stuck in TTS4,a place where I stayed.It won't be as comfy as my Sunway's home but...overall it's still alright.A master bedroom shared with my lovely roommate,who has been very helpful to me during my first few weeks in Nottingham.And of course,class wasn't too bad at all.I rather not but I have to admit that studying is in my blood.I've met new friends and it seems to be a new life for me.Everything here is new and I got to adapt myself in all situation.It's a huge....spacious university where I have to walk for miles to go to class.Tiring but looking in a positive side,it's a good way of exercising.I'm not much of a sport person.

As for now,days are getting much more busy.I have a lot of readings to do,preparation that must be made for labs,assignments are coming up,I would say it is rather exciting for me.I've done my first dispensing...and wow.....I didn't know I'm going to actually produced drugs.REAL DRUGS!!!I wonder who's going to consume it..hmmm....done my first and second dispensing with an excellent marks!O well....I'm born to be a Pharmacist!=P

Many events that are coming up,with the post that I'm holding...there isn't much time for me to take a break.Arrggghhh!!!!However being able to keep myself busying I just feel that my life is much more meaningful.

Apart from that....uhhh...I've been missing church and cell group for quite some time.I miss serving in the choir,seeing all the people that I care and love,being filled with the presence of God and most of all...pastor's sermon..Oooo gosh......I miss it badly...And my reports!!!!!I never forget about it..so....it's going to be a long long long report....Enjoy reading pastor!

Here's some bits and pieces about my university life.

 

*****First day studying in the Library*****

 

*****Stack of books I will be reading throughout my academic years*****

*****Day time view of where I'm studying now**winky***

*****Look at all the duckyS by the lake -Aren't they cute?Quack quack*****

And yes there's a lake right in the middle of the university!

*****Welcome to University of Nottingham*****

*****TheMainBuilding*****

*****NightMode*****

*****TheBridge*****

*****View from TheBridge*****

*****TheFountain*****

*****TheSA-Happening area & place where I have my meals*****

*****MyFaculty-TheFacultyOfScience*****

*****Finally-TheClockTower*****

Love,

Alyssa Cross

~xoxo~