❤Face it❤

Many things have been running through my mind.I thought I could get over it,sorted it out one by one,however it turned out to be a disaster.I tried to make things right,but it always appeared to be wrong.There's always something that would tell me about your true self.Should I say...I just lucky enough that it always pops out itself without needing me to check it out myself.Don't try to twist and turn,the moment I hear that very one tone of your voice,the moment I saw that expression,I knew that yer lying.I gave you chances to explain but ended up yer trying to escape.Well...it's okay I had enough,I believe,so as you do.Yer just one despicable,obnoxious person.It makes me feel so sick.I'm giving a smooth sailing to you.Travel safe.

I guess the drought has lasted for quite some time,but it rained heavily today and it was filled again.Haven't felt so cosy for ages.Time flies and now that yer leaving,I didn't had a chance to even have a glimpse.Sorry that I lied as I didn't want you to fret.

And...I guees I'm out with my decision.70% for Nottingham and 30% for Taylor's.Still under discussion.Cross my heart that I would make a right one and be firm about it.Even though I felt a lil reluctant to start my studies,I doubt that I am ready for it.However delaying it won't make it any better.It might be that I am just avoiding it.Final decision will be tomorrow.Heavenly Papa,please guide me.I need Your peace!!!

MyLilCottonBall just won't leave my side.He follows me everywhere I go and only me.I think he's more than an elephant glue,sticking to me all the time even when I'm sleeping,he is so hesitant to get off my bed.MyBoy~Yer existance soothe my heart everytime when I am down.

*****MyLilCottonBall*****

Good night for now!

Love,

AlyssaCross

~xoxo~

❤Insincerity❤

Sometimes,the feeling of wanting too much will actually cause you to be unconscious of making the right decision.No matter how many times that I try to make it right,unwillingness to change or forcing myself to change ain't gonna take me no where.At the end of the day,it will still remain the same.

My Life gets kinda boring.Everynight I lay on my bed,looking up the sky full of stars,I need another story,something that I can confess,without a mask on me.I've been on the brink,honesty is just a lonely word,everyone is being so untrue,neither being true to myself.I knew and I knew it but I just kept it hiding within my vision and let it linger beside me,obviously I can see the result.It's GONE!

Look how amazing I've gone this far,people are on your side not mine,belittle and assaulted me to the lowest.I don't care if all never gets in line,no longer chasing after the stars.I don't need another puzzle!I don't need another guess!I don't really like my flow and I'm going to refine it.Stay original and not gonna let it disappear.No one to blame for,no one to look for,it's all about me that I have a story.

 

Loneliness has always been a friend of mine

Love,

AlyssaCross

~xoxo~



❤Blessed❤

To bless?Or to be blessed?What would you choose?

There are certain time that we would forget to bless others.Sometimes,we tend to take more than we give.At time,we complaint too much,on our work,our studies,our daily routine,our relationship with family and friends,our responsibility and etc,What do you get at the end of the day of complaining?Easy said yet I've been struggling so hard to do it.However,everything need a baby steps to start.Once I am willing to sacrifice,just a lil,I would say,everything feels worth it and pays off with a smile from your heart.The more I give,the happier I am.Some might not be that significant and some might taken up my whole paycheque,being appreciated by those who really cares bout every little deeds I've done,I feel as if I'm over the moon.Indeed God will never shortchange me.I am blessed and still am, with wonderful people around me.I would choose,to see you happy and everything is worthwhile for me to do.

Lesson of the day:Learn to BLESS others!

Time, when I didn't know what to do or how should I?It has started for good reasons,if that's the way it is...it's gonna be it.Much to do but I didn't want to think NO MORE!!!What am I seeking for?I am yet to discover who am I!

Dilemma:Can someone decide for me?Off to Nottingham?OR wait for another few months for Taylor's?

*p/s:I'm loving MyLife&Job>.<

Love,

AlyssaCross

~xoxo~

❤Keep it On-Going❤

I just realised that I only update my blog twice a month,one at the begining of the month,second at the end of the month.Ouch!However,to keep this blog A L I V E,I will try to blog as much as possible.Here's what's going on recently in MyLife.

Past two weeks I was back in my hometown,nothing much to do but happy times with friends and family.Awaiting for the arrival of a friend of mine from UK,I was excited to meet yet we didn't feel as if we've been away for long.Why is that so?Hmmm....I would say that we keep in touch very often that it feels like I meet this friend of mine everyday.Glad to see that yer back here now...Our very first chill out-Mud-cake.Come to think about it...Mud-cake is in my list now.Ooopssie~Mud-cake will be my next recipe!

Too limited time to spare,Ipoh was my first stop to visit,what else if it's not for SHOPPING!!!Weee~Thanks to MyBeloved for the lovely bag.Ish...should have get more since I'm not limited by any budget on that day.We went to both Jusco and Parkson for clothes and bag,however....PARKSON is always my favourite.Had the famous Chicken Beansprout Kuey Teow for brunch and off we go.I wanted to get the FamousSatay on the way back home,unfortunately..it was closed!!!!I guess due to Ramadan=((

It wasn't suppose to be a photoshooting day,but...cheeky OiOi snap for none stop yet didn't want to be my model.Huh~That's not the point I guess.We had fun spending time together.The mood was like Emo-Happy-Emo.Happy when I was there,emo when OiOi is back home.*Hide Hide quick*

I was back in KL last Friday,due to PEMO.Very excited for PEMO as it was the first time for me to be involved in makeover for Uncle Ooi's house.I was in charge of the mopping and cleaning session.To be honest,I've done my very best sweeping and mopping again and again but the floor doesn't seems to be clean at all.Ooospp!O well,switch to painting the wall instead.While waiting for Pastor to pack lunch for all of us,we had a surprise birthday cake for him.Thanks to one of the talented member who baked a tiramisu cake for all of us.Yummy~And the interesting card,I would say it looks like a puzzle to me.Too many faces.Meanwhile,it's been a long time since I last served in choir.Rushing back home to prepare,I'm still a lil late for the service,however I managed to go up stage.It feels so good to be back again serving God and Pastor preached a powerful sermon,Journey of An Anointing,that gives me an assurance to all my doubts.Thanks Pastor and it's good to have you back in our midst again.

Sunday is the day!I've got so much to do as I was in charge of getting Pastor's gift.Together with Jireh,off we went to Pavilion and KLCC.After long hours of discussing since the night until the morning,we finally agreed to get Pastor a HUGO BOSS perfume gift set and HAGAN DAZ voucher.I had my lunch at DOME~O my...it's one of my favourite stop by now.Arggghhh!!!!I'm gonna be broke if I continue to upgrade my lifestyle.While waiting for 3 of my dearS to arrive,I had a quick shopping spree at KLCC and I'm loving it.Pavilion and KLCC is in my list now!OUCCHH~

Celebrating MyDear-Patpat&OnnOnn's convocation,the place was packed with hundreds of people,shouting and moving all the way,I couldn't spot both of them and I'm running out of time.Well,I can't leave without saying congratz with hugs and kisses,a quick snap snap and off I went for Pastor's birthday party-80's for the theme.Had a great night at the party,with all the talented and awesome leaders whom prepared so well for all the performances and quiz.Laughter and joy filled up the hall.Last but not least,photoshooting time.It's a wasted that I couldn't make it for TanTan's birthday,I still love you and your family Pastor!Most importantly,I felt I've succeed in buying gift for Pastor.He loves it!!!!Yippeeeyy...Thanks to my leader,Faith&Heng for the suggestion as buying gift for Pastor is a challenging one.

Stay tune for more updates~

Love,

AlyssaCross

~xoxo~

❤U.P.R.E.D.I.C.T.A.B.L.E❤

There are many things in life which you'll never know until it happens..or maybe you just realised it after it had happened.What would you do by then?Over the weekends,countless days...I've been doing things that I didn't know what am I doing.I felt lost at the moment yet not knowing what's the reason.Life seems to be unpredictable.Sometime, it just won't go the way I wanted to...chances that I missed,choices that I've made,mis-predicted,consequences I need to bear with,etc etc...I didn't want to talk.I didn't want to speak a word.I just want to be alone,hoping that just the one night I can relinquish everything unwanted.On moment I paused,I have forgotten Who Am I!Searching for the Lost One in my past?Or renew The One in the present?

I dreamt of a garden,filled with roses and I thought that I've found mine.Once I plucked the one rose,I cut my hands but every roses seems the same,red...how can I differentiate?

Up the sky I gazed,am I living in a fairytale?Every stars has a hole in it,wondering are they lonely?

Close and wish upon to have my very own star that would sustained in me so that I can move on to have my dreams.

Awake moving about aimlessly,I see many people come and go,yet looking for my very own corner.Will I find my star?

Love,

AlyssaCross

~xoxo~

❤The Very First Taken By US❤

Our journey started to divide when year 2006 approached.Now and then we seldom meet,but but...we always make it an appoint to hang out,care and love for each other.Keeping our dearS-ship firm and strong ,closer than never before that nothing can ever come in between us.We fall and we stand up again with each other side by side,now,always & forever!

On a sunny afternoon,4th of June,awaiting for Chicky's arrival,we planned for a short hang out.I would say...it's one of the best among the best.While waiting for Ducky to get prepare,Doggy and me had a real short nap.A photo I took it without him noticing.

We headed to One Utama for our lunch,can't remember what shop we went,but but...our model for the day,Doggy.*Applause

  

*****Promoting the food or Doggy???*****

There's a Toy Exhibition at the Oval Court,which brings back some memories about our childhood.Amazing work done by those people using LEGOS,one of the toys I used to play when I was young.I guess this is why I love art work,fixing and creating dearly.A-Creative-Person!

  

*****Two-KIDS playing with the Baby Mini Scooter*****

*****Happy+Emo*****He's just trying to act cool*

*****What about this?Is he MAN-enough?*****

A little prank we played on while waiting for Ducky to finish her chat with a Nivea promoter.We decided to hang over at the Rainforest,taking photo while waiting for the time to come.A little fun yet we did enjoy ourselves very very much^^

*****TheBridge-Ducky never know that there is a bridge,OMG*****

*****Onn,did you cam-whore?*****

*****We love to play with slide*****

Most of the time,it reminds us about our childhood.Even though we did not grow up together,hmmm...it seems that we don't have to because our dearS-ship is stronger than anyone else.I cherish MydearS very much from the very bottom of MyHeart!I hope the rest of you too appreciate those who truly heart you^^

Feeling thristy and tired,we take a break at the nearby cafe.I didn't notice what cafe it is,but the drink...they are all okay.

*****Cam-whoring while waiting for Onn*****

*****Paparazzi shot-Seems like Onn is always ready*****

*****GuiLingGao-Dear's Favorite*****

*****LonganGuiLingGao-Mine!!!*****

*****Onn insisted that it's his-O well..just a sip alright*****

*****Onn is trying to fit into our cam-whore photo*****

Time to go to fetch Chicky,on our way to our car,we came across some EcoGreenWeek awareness.

*****Happy supporting EcoGreenWeek*****

Let's show our support by saving the trees.Say NO to those that would harm our earth!

*****It's essential for us to be aware that our earth needs our care!*****

*****STOP Climate Change*****

*****Green=HealthyLiving*****

We can never get tired of shooting.Taken at the traffic light when all the cars stop.

*****OurKawaiiSide*****

*****HOPE lies in each of OurHearts*****

*****MydearS-OurSign-ChuChu*****

Love,

AlyssaCross

~xoxo~

❤Life is Unexpected❤

Come to think again,time past real fast.In a blink I'm where am I right now.I had an amazing-life changing conference in Singapore.That's how people always put it that way.Frankly speaking,it's really good,just that...I think something went wrong for me.I enjoyed all the session as I was eager to learn more,despite the others.Though,there're some disappointment,I wasn't very satisfied with my sermon notes.*Fall asleep for 3 sessions*Grasp!!!!

Praise&worship was good,Amazingly it took my breath away.I actually gave up on queueing up,does that mean I'm not on fire for God?NO!!!I'm still on fire.I've learnt what I need to,I've listen the whispers of the voice of TheLord.From time to time He's speaking to me,even at time I was really burnt out.I do feel bad for the day that I was really down and I'm really sorry if I did indirectly hurt any one of you.

Big thanks to those who look after me during these days,had a little time for shopping and I bet I've got the most affordable,reasonable price for some stuff.Happy wee~Thanks to bro for the extra shopping expenses^^

Well, I was back in KL on Monday morning,I felt so good.My house was squeaky clean.Thanks to Mommy who came to KL when I was away to clean up...and and yes it's 31st of May,my dearie dAr's birthday.A lil celebration with 2 of my so called 'new friends' at Village Park,Nasi Lemak for lunch,we headed to MidValley to get stuff for Waylon's departure to USA.We had Baskin Robin in Starbucks,*ps Outside food is not allowed*,and off to Alexis for...I assumed it's dinner.Instead of giving presents,I've received 2 unexpected surprise gifts.Something that I always wanted to buy but it isn't the right time for me to get it.What a blessing.Thank you so much for the love and care you have for me.Foremost,thank God for such wonderful people in my life.

*****Happy22ndBirthday*****

*****Mydearie-dArDaR*****

The next day,Tuesday morning,I received a shocking new that wouldn't come across my mind.Everything just makes me feel that life is unpredicted.My very simple mistakes,decisions and actions will lead to a huge circumstances and life changing.

As for today,it was my very first CG meeting after a long long break.I was really excited to hear all the sharing we're gonna have but but..how embarrassing that I burst into tears.I felt really by all the words of encouragement,and and also the love that you felt from me.I was really bless.I didn't realise that my little deeds would touch your heart.

It's gonna be a great weekend for me.I'm very excited to meet up with MyDearS...and and our trip...weE~

Can't wait to blow up the city again.

Love

AlyssaCross

~xoxo~