♥말도 없이♥

The pace of yours is left at one of the carriage.The wind in the subway,drabber than the memories and the whole city has been waiting for me but,there's still a feeling of drifting.I used to believe that tomorrow will be the future,I tried my very best through all the hardships until despair.No matter how bad the circumstances are,it's the deal of my vanity.
Even if there are regrets,what can I do about them?Will I recovered even if I have gone through all the sadness and hurts?Countless music,rendering in my mind.Unspeakable words,things that I can't explained.Used to rely on each others' shoulder,and now we are wanderers among the sea of people.
If I could revert the moment,I will still clench my fist tightly because I'm afraid that my dreams will vanish.When I closed my eyes,in the realm of my very own fantasy,wishing that I will not wake up.Time is ticking and it still have to come to an end,I need to end the absurdity.
My heart has been shattered.I just need your hug,not your kiss.Need you to be my dearest,not a lover or someone's.Just lend me your hand one minute a day,so that I can dream.Every moment I treasure,seeing the smile on your face,the light of happiness in your eyes.

Love,

♥Alyssa Cross♥

♥xoxo♥

♥Dazzle after dark OR Dark after dazzle?♥

When the time comes, I will still be the one who decide everything for myself. I've got 6 offers for my course so far, but which to choose? Undecided! Some unconditional offers, some required phone interview and personal interview. Places I've not visit, doubting how it will feels like to be there. Should I just accept what I've seen? Or should I just give it a try for a whole new experience? It's either A or B or maybe C? However, I am still hoping for the nearest one. There's no place like home. Excited for the weekends to come but I'm back in Sitiawan =.= Need to plan on my trip now. It doesn't sail according to my weather.

♥♥♥♥♥TheOne♥♥♥♥♥

To my updates, currently I'm taking part time job, at home. Very convenient. I was hoping that I could have a tick-filled boxes in my list. I'm looking forward to reach my target and not to forget my reward. I'm waiting Monkey. You know I can do it no matter what it takes=P

A week in Sunway, this is how I spent it. Church mainly is about friend's night, Bridging Colours. Performances by the church dance-team, AnHonestMistake and most of all that captured my breath, the beat-boxer-ShawnLee. I want to go Hennesy Artistry just for the performance!!!

Right after that, I'm supposed to go home, instead dear Ivy was so desperated of wanting to sing. We headed to Neway SJ. Singing all the way until 3 am. And poor dear was sick the next day=((

I had an interview to attend supposely at 2pm, just as what I've expected, it turned out to be 4pm. Had to wait meanwhile attend a few talks about my course. It seems fascinating to me, the study-environment, lecturers, clubs and ummm...I guess the people there too. It somehow makes me feel much more difficult to choose then. Dilemma~ Thanks to Monkey for being my driver. Heart you lots lots. I know you can swing everywhere with me on your back=P Later on, missing MyDear lots, we had dinner and the most delicious brownies I've tried so far. Way better than SecretRecipe. I'm craving for cakes now. Yum-yum~

♥♥♥♥♥FinestBrowniesInTown♥♥♥♥♥

♥♥♥♥♥NextStopForCakes-Puchong♥♥♥♥♥

Saturday, I was excited to be back in church serving TheLord with all my heart. I feel joy and peace as so much had troubled me recently. I'm trying to change all that I've done. Mistakes and immaturity. Praying hard to be accepted again, but first I need to accept myself>.<> work to do, I missed the outing planed by choir=(( but still I had my Lays with me^^
Sunday, 14March, TheWhiteValentine's. I didn't know it's the day. Somehow I had my surprise^^ I went shopping, dinning, and 'exploring'. Within budget or maybe I've high expectation, I don't find anything that attracts me at all. O well at least I managed to drain off some.The most appetizing tea-time, I had ClubSandwiches and HotChocolate at LePassione.

♥♥♥♥♥HeavenlyTea-time♥♥♥♥♥

And guess what, there's a HelloKitty roadshow at TheCurve. Used to be my darling...or still is? Anyway, I still find that HelloKitty is adorable^^

♥♥♥♥♥HelloKitty-AlwaysPinky♥♥♥♥♥

Monday, which I'm looking forward to. A day where D-Family hang out together. I had my scrumptious lunch at a nearby duck noodle shop and dropped by in Pyramid for SkinFood. A call, plan changed and we decided to head to Redbox at TheGardens before our night plans.

Undecided of where to eat, finally we ended up at LittleTaiwan. Ain't so Taiwanese after all, however my fancy Taiwan snacks will still be none other than ShihLinTaiwanSnack=P

Our movie for the night, AliceInWonderland. We're supposed to watch 3D, unfortunately not. Well, I guess I'll go for 2nd round. 3D for sure. There're so many pretty little dishy mushrooms everywhere and also the herculean ones. I was amazed by the decoration in MidValley. I just love Fairytales.

♥♥♥♥♥IHaveMyVeryOwnFairytales♥♥♥♥♥

The theater was heat up by us, imitating some of the acts, I hope we're not disturbing the others. Never missed, yum-cha is a must. And geez, after 12 years, our anniversary is coming, Dear&I, always have our mind clicked. We know what's best for both of us^^

Withal, deep down inside, I've unsolved mysteries. Will it turn out to be a dazzle after dark? Or otherwise.

Love,

♥Alyssa Cross♥

♥xoxo♥

♥Ultimate Flip-Flop♥

Internet breakdown for 2 weeks,but it feels like ages.I'm so out-dated without internet.Couldn't do anything at all.It was Chinese New Year back then and have been very very busy though.We had 6 long red cracker popping all the way,not to miss out,releasing lanterns up up in the sky bringing along our dreams and desires.It's a sign of blessing.It's all about CNY food and cookies,what I couldn't resist,the dried meat and meat floss.I'm loving it.Yum~yum~Not to mention,..all the circumstances that I need to bear.

♥♥♥♥♥Up-up And Away♥♥♥♥♥

Time where families and friends gather.Some can even hardly=((I had my gatherings.Some were never friends eventually turned out to be one,some...o well...they never changed.Old and new friends gather,or maybe...those that you actually called FRIENDS?It brings back all the past memories.Throughout the years,there's a tremendous 'evolution' among people,where I pick my sidekick and my intimate ones.Anyhow...I had a wondrous CNY and holidays=)) Having a full plate,I can't see why I can't breathe without the cyberspace...except only when I needed to check my emails...and perquisition all the unlimited source.

♥♥♥♥♥D-Family*TopLeftClockwise-Piggy♥To-be-named♥Bunny♥Monkey♥Ducky♥Chicky♥♥♥♥♥

♥♥♥♥♥MyValentine's♥♥♥♥♥

♥♥♥♥♥Being-Loved*Now*Always*Forever♥♥♥♥♥
Over the months,reaching to year,I still have 'unpaid' debt to be made,but how?I wonder...Facing predicament,it agitates me whenever I was given a hint,or even whispers that I've heard,not knowing what to do.Willingness to lead off isn't the point now but having the courage?I don't think so.If only people will never think of "What IF"...apparently...like me...it will turn out right?There will never be the word 'courage' anymore.*sigh*Afraid of being repudiated again,it will always be a mystery.

♥♥♥♥♥J♥urneyWeHadBeenT♥gether♥♥♥♥♥

♥♥♥♥♥LittleSpicesToBeRemembered♥♥♥♥♥
Future lies ahead.Having dreams and vision,deep desire but it ain't align.We are not twin.Day by day,it's a metamorphosis.Entirety.What am I yearning for?
♥♥♥♥♥Sweet&Bitter*Used-to-be*♥♥♥♥♥

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Love,
♥AlyssaCross♥
♥xoxo♥

♥New Season Of MyLife♥

A NewYear,a NewResolution,a NewSeasonOfMyLife♥It will be a new start for me.I need to have strong determination on what I have decided to do for my life.The past was terrible,wrong decisions,wrong thoughts,wrong judgement,wrong action,wrong character and attitude,lead to a nightmare,but let it be a past.I'm looking forward for Year-2010.Hoping that this year will never be the same for me.I want a breakthrough in my life♥physically♥mentally♥emotionally♥most important-spiritually♥O well...as for my new year resolution...I guess I will just keep it to myself =P

Currently waiting for my results...in two weeks time.Gosh-I'm so anxious about it♥Pray for the best♥Do wish me luck♥University applications-Processing.Waiting for Taylor's to open application for pharmacy.I hope they will launch it for this year.In a dilemma...where should I go?

I'm just trying my best to make my vision and desire to come to past.To grow more-stronger in faith♥to walk with God♥It will never be easy...but as long as I live...I will try.Those who are trying to bring me down...I'm gonna knock you off my way!!!

New year eve,celebrated in Genting.Due to the thick fog,I only saw colours instead of fireworks.However...I had a great time...meanwhile thinking...I had my favourite BaskinRobin on a cold shivering weather,coughing and sneezing all the night.And the delicious triple decker cheese cake from CoffeeBean.I'm just craving for all the ♥sweeties♥

I hope everyone has a wonderful new year celebration.Till then~
Love,

♥Alyssa-Cross♥
♥xoxo♥

I Don't Care Anymore!

Just in a month,anything can happen.Another 1 month,my results will be out.I'm nervous,thinking about it,yet...there's so much more bothering me.Problems and obstacles that I need to overcome.Trying real hard,putting in much effort...but I still can't find the solution.Remain unsolved,new ones come around.It feels like...my mind is gonna explode.I wasn't thinking right at all.I don't know what am I talking.What did I say?I desperately need help,guidance,to get out of it.I don't want to think no more.Don't want to care anymore.Let it be who you are...I don't even bother wanting to know you.I hate you for how you treated me.I don't know what you want.

What are you thinking?

What are you expecting?

What are you feeling?

WHO ARE YOU???

Indescribable feelings~

My blog has gone 'rusty' for months without being updated.Well I'm back!!!Over the past few months,I've been rather busy with my studies and church.And now I've finished my A-levels,which I really felt a big relief though for a moment.Bet I'll started to worry about my results.Basically...I think I didn't do well in some papers yet I can't do anything about it.Might as well just appreciate the time I have now as my result will be out in January.
Right after my last paper,I've attended Emerge-The Rising,organised by my church,City Harvest in Sunway Convention Centre.The grand opening was awesome.Spot lights everywhere.It was like a huge party.I'm so glad that dear Ivy enjoy it so much where she found the answers to her life.Continue to pray that she will open up her heart towards Jesus Christ.

*****MayGodBlessDearIvy*****
As for me,the moment I always been waiting for...the Word Of God.Rev.Dr.KongHee was the preacher.All the sermons really impacted me.God answered my prayer-I've been praying for the last few months.It gaves me assurance on the dreams I want to pursue.Still...I need to pray hard for confirmation.Moreover,I've learnt the importance of having the characters in order to achieve my dreams,moulding good characters in me.Everything got to have a first time.If I don't work it out,what's the point of even thinking about it?Keep up the spirit and start making all things new^^All this bring me closer to God.I've experienced God's peace,exceed anything that I can understand.Praying is indeed powerful!!!
Emerge caused me to love MyChurch,MyPastor,MyCellLeader&TheMembers more.I feel more attached to MySpiritualFamily.I finally understand the principle of being commited and loyal and why not only towards God,but also MyChurch,MyCellLeader,TheMembers&Relationships I have with people around me.I bet my life will never be the same again.Am ready for all the challenges to be successful in the eyes of God.

*****SomeBooksI'veBoughtToBuildUpMySpiritualLife*****
Many things have changed in my life over the past few months.I've learn a lot and grown(I think...well at least I learn something~) in many aspects.I begin to appreciate people around me who brought happiness into my life,tought me how to be a better person in life.Of course there are ups and downs during these period.I've struggled...and...I think I overcomed it.I don't know how well I've solved all the problems but at least...it's not bothering me anymore.I feel very blessed for having such a wonderful people around me who truly love and trust me especially my parents and brothers.Thanks to those who encourages me all the time whenever I fall into the deepest valley that I can hardly stand up again,for those who brings lots of fun and joy into my life,those who does not judge me and love me for who I am.

*****LearningToLoveMyself*****
I've grown so much more in Christ.I guess I can never live without Christ.I've never been so serious about it...but being a part of W19 tought me how awesome is MyGod.I feel accepted again by Him and not haunted by my past anymore.I will stay firm and strong in Him,I shall not be influenced by people who always try to bring me down and apart from God.His peace will guard my heart and mind as I live in Christ Jesus.
*****W19-WhoBringsSunshineToMyLife*****
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Love,
Alyssa-Cross~xoxo~