❤Am I Happy?❤

It is not because I love you just a little bit, it is because I love you too much, that is why I am trying so hard to be happy. Love and hate are equal. When you just love a little, you would just hate a little. Hence, vice versa. A little of love and a little of hatred, it is just so easy to get along. You move on and forget about everything.

What about when you love too much? You hate even more. You try even harder to be happy without em' and yet you know and you know it, you can never be happy without em'.

You act like you don't care at all. You are fine without em' because you think you are happy. 

When night hits, you are all alone. Think and think, and you keep on thinking. What is the matter with you? Why are you trying so hard to be happy, when you can simply be happy just by staying side by side with em'. 

Holding on grudges, being too afraid to trust again and the world just make you into a complicated person. You have seen too much, expect too much and want too much. One day, when you are left with nothing, that is when you will realized, you should have just be the simple innocent girl that you used to be.

Just because I love you too much.

Love,

~Alyssa Cross~

~xoxo~

❤21st March 2014 : 2321❤

The day that finally speaks out my regrets. People come and go. Again and again, I asked myself, what is life all about? Seeking for the answer like forever and yet no one can explain. Stubborn enough not to accept all that have been given, a piece of advice. When will be the day that you finally wake up? 

Who would ever understand the bond that built within, once a stranger, came into your life, and the rest of the days will never be the same  because of the footprints of life that you left- family-liked uncle.

Things that I have been wanting to do, no word can describe that how I wish I have acted earlier and not dragging it all along. Even if I could or wanted to so badly right now, it is all too late because regrets and sorry meant nothing at all to the dead.

I carry a smile on my face day by day, who would ever understand how much my heart cry out and bleed, and yet I expect no one.

Love,

~Alyssa Cross~

~xoxo~