Restored?

It has been a while since the last update.No internet no nothing.Can't update.Apparently,even if I blogged for the last few days it will be about my condition and 'mood'.Mood swings.For the past two weeks,I've been having a real bad mood.No idea why and finally...o well I guess it's because of my PMS and...loaded with homework and tests.I did badly for my Biology test.It really brings me down.All the way.I couldn't express how I feel but it makes me want to quit.Trying to hold on to it.Never give up.Hopefully I can go through it.Thanks to all those who hang on with me.Never gave me up because of me selfishness.Thanks a whole lots to all MyHeartedDears~

It's coming to the end of February.Time really flies.I need to buck up and start moving yet I'm still...undescribable~no comment~Need some motivations.Mould in good habits.Can anyone help me?Desperately need your help.Please!!!

Mommy just went back to Sitiawan.It's the first time she hang out here for so long.A week.Having a great time with her yet feeling so depressed in me.Didn't want her to feel bad about it I might as well just keep it in my heart.Pray that things will get better soon.God~Help!!!

Love,

Alyssa-Cross~xoxo~

End of Friday~

Thank God class ended at 1230, I can't wait to go home. What's wrong with me this week?Am I on the blink? I'm not excited of going to class anymore. Is it because I'm loaded with tons of work? All need to hand in by next week. Ms.Vijay has been very kind to us, extended the dateline for Chemistry work. Cheerz~ Math tutorial... 2 more questions to go. Not a problem. And Biology...O..well... Reports and work sheets. I'm going to fill all my weekends with all those.

So much to do yet so little time. Now that everything starts moving fast, I need to buckle up and start moving forward. The worst is yet to happen. Praying hard to God. Keeping my faith strong towards Him. Need a strong foundation for the future, the path that You have chosen for me...but...what is it? -.-'"

I'm such a noob. I wonder... How would it be like...if....there is an 'IF'...

Mommy&Daddy is coming to town. Weeee~ Can't wait to meet them. At least they will make me feel re-charged again. Ready to boost up to the peak. Looking forward for tomorrow.

Till then~Can't stay long for computer nowadays.

Ooopsss....before I end, wish Baby all the best in her exams starting tomorrow. Just do it girl. Yer the best. Believe it and achieve it. Distinction is in your hands. I can predict it...kekeke (^.~)

Love,

Alyssa-Cross~xoxo

Sigh~

It was indeed another horrible day for me. I felt so dreary during the day. Why? I... really don't know. Am I having a somber mood? So many homework to do. Test is just around the corner. Wracking my brain. Work brain WORK!!! Sadly my brain just ignore me T.T

I feel so...pessimistic? Can anyone please help me??? Looking downcast? Doleful?

OR what-so-ever??? Can't even answer my own questions. All I know is that I'm feeling melancholy~

Bad!!!

It's a bad week for me. I've done so many wrongs. Things won't just go the way I want it to be. It's terrible. Horrible. Undescribable. I feel very tired over the week. I feel discourage. Suddenly it is like... everything seems so dark to me. I did the wrong experiment during my practical for Chemistry. Luckily I still managed to re-do it and finish up on time. Still bad. A rush. I made so many careless mistakes in Maths. It's a stupid mistake. Can't imagine I did it. How idiot. Next I couldn't concentrate during my Biology class. Urghh... my mind just flew off to no where and I don't know where. It made me do-not-have-the-heart-to-do-it.

Drove back home... O-MY-GOSH... I almost hit the divider. Why? I don't know. My eyes were opened... but I'm not concious. Gosh~ What a close one. God woke me up on time.

What is wrong with me?

No no... I must pull myself together. Fix the puzzle. I still haven't find a suitable cell group for myself. O HeavenlyPapa~ Help!!!

Thanks to those who continue supporting me during my darkest time. It really means a lot to me. Cheerz for all of you~

Love,

Alyss-Cross~xoxo~

Valentine's

*****LOVE*****

*****HappyValentine's*****

*****TrueFriend-Love*****

*****Family-Love*****

*****RegardlessWhoYouAre*****


*****Love-Of-Marriage*****

How do you define LOVE?

What is LOVE?

Does LOVE only applies to couples? Or should I say does Valentine's only for couples?

Love is when you can say to someone 'I LOVE YOU' -someone includes anyone that is important to you in your life-

Love is when you get to hold someone's hands.

Love is when you can talk on phone for hours.

Love is when you give a hug to someone.
Love is when you are willing to accompany someone.
Love is when you show someone that you care.
Love is a good feelings.
Love is emotional and sweeps you off your feet!
Love is unexplainable magical.

Love is laughing and crying together.
Love is buying presents for someone.

Love is carrying each other's burdens.
Love is lending someone your shoulder.

Love is appreciative.

Love is patient.
Love is kind;

Love does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
Love is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered.
Love keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth.
Love always protects, always trust, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails.
Faith, Hope and Love remains, but;

the greatest of all is LOVE.

Love is color-blind.
Love is the food of all souls.
You can give without loving, but you can't love without giving.
If you are not ready to give, you are not ready to love.
Only wanting to receive will lead to disappointment.

Love always give. Love sacrifices.

How do you start to love someone?

Communication leads to love.
Spending time leads to love, but;
It is not how much time you spend;

It is how much effort you put in when you spend your time with your love ones.
It takes time for a relationship to grow.

Love needs words to grow; as relationship needs word to grow.

The ultimate expression of LOVE is when GOD gave HIS one and only SON, JESUS CHRIST to die on the cross for US. EVERYONE regardless who you are.

*****Love-Of-Christ*****

For this Valentine's, this is what I've learnt.

And of course not only learning;

I need to put in the effort to do it.

YOSH-GAMBATEH NEH~

I've got so much more to learn and do.
Now only I realised that I've disappointed many people who love me so much.
I never thought that how badly I had hurt them, especially all MyBelovedOnes.
It is an eye-opener for me this Valentine's.

Happy Valentine's to all MyBelovedOnes.
Valentine's are not only celebrated by couples;
But family and friends too.
It is the day where you show your love to all your love ones.

*****Together-Now&Always*****

Love,

Alyssa-Cross~xoxo~

Happy Birthday MOMMY!!!

*****MOMMY*****

It was Mommy's big day. Not really actually. Supposely on the 17th of February, but I couldn't make it back to Sitiawan on that day, I have CLASS!!! Too bad. So I planned out my time to be back yesterday, to spend some time with her, celebrating Mommy's birthday. Yes... she's surprised that I wanted to celebrate her birthday earlier. Mommy thought that birthday is going to be on without me, but... I made it back home!!!

*****Mommy's Birthday Cake*****

Mommy was very happy about it. We celebrated Mommy's birthday in the afternoon, before she off to work, and before I departed back to KL. Of course not to miss it, we began with photo session. Trying out the position using the tripod stand as I don't have a camera man back home. Running on and off, pressing the button. Uh~ hot!!! even though the air cond was on.

Continued with birthday song, I can see that Mommy was filled with joy, smiling all the way. Made a wish and blew off the candles.

*****Make-A-Wish*****

*****IWonderWhatMommyWishFor?Hmmm*****

Never missed, cake cutting 'ceremony'. YeaY~ All of us trying to make funny pose, even Daddy joined us. That's cute~ Enjoyed our cakes together. O..my...Mommy ate all the fruits.

*****Delicious?MommyLovesIt*****

*****Why?CauseIBoughtIt XD*****

*****aIkoFamily*****

*****BroWasMissing-In-KL*****

*****aIkoMommy&Daddy*****

Well, I can say that... I made the right choice to go back on Sunday, even though it was rushing, realizing I'll be very tired on Tuesday... but... WORTH IT!!!

*****Mommy&HerBaoBei*****

*****That'sWhatSheAlwaysReferMeAs*****

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY.

*****Kiss-Kiss*****

*****JustAPoseButWeActuallyDidKissMommy*****

Behalf of my brothers... WE LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!!!

Love,

Alyssa-Cross~xoxo~

Dilemma~Yet The Right Choice!

Very great, I couldn't make it to church due to certain reasons. I'm disappointed actually. Need to be more determined of going to Church. I'm hunger for GOD!!! Come on- I need to work it out..Urgh!!! Well at least I watched online services in the afternoon. I had porridge for my lunch. Homecooked. Yeay. Sick of outside food. I miss Mommy's cooking T.T Missing home badly. Filled with disappointment... out of sudden... I get to go back home. In a dilemma... should I go or should I not go? Thinking all the way because I have Chemistry test on Tuesday. Alright then made up my mind and just go home. I packed... only my books. No clothes. Haha... and off I go.

I wanted to surprise Mommy for my arrival... but secret didn't last. MyBro told Mommy about me going home. Urgh!!! No fun at all. Mommy called me... she sounded surprise... yet happy to hear that I'm coming home. Wondering how I find out? O well... I can hear it from Mommy's voice. After all... I'm her daughter ever since I was born =P

Secretly... I went to buy a cake. Mommy's favourite yam cake. Back home Daddy was surprise to see me. Daddy is so glad that I'm back as tomorrow is the 15th of CNY, which is one of the important day for Chinese. A re-union dinner. Woots~ Cleaned up myself and Mommy is back.

The joy filled her heart when she sees me. Funny right. Is not that I've been away for a long time. She smiled all the way and asked me to accompany her out to buy some stuffs. Well, I can feel the love that MyFamily have for me =) Helping her in the kitchen, talk all the way about my life and hers. Too much to say yet too little time. We shall continue tomorrow as I'm tired and so did she. Sweet dreams Mommy... Sweet dreams Daddy.

Conclusion, I've made the right choice to come back HOME!!!

Love,

Alyssa-Cross~xoxo~

Sad~ But Congratz!!!

I'm suppose to be home right now, I mean HomeTown...but unfortunately MyBro... which I considered him as a PIG... slept until 1600 plus... and deleys the departure time. In the end, I'm here... still in KL. Mommy's birthday is coming. I though I can celebrate with her this weekends. Sobzz.. so sad I ain't going back. We'll see how about next week.. Hopefully I can go home to be there with Mommy on her special day. Actually Mommy was waiting for me to be home. Ever since morning she's been calling. Sorry Mommy. Well, let's pray that she will be out in KL if I can't go back... Hahahaha...

I'm having my Chemistry test on Tuesday. O my... I'm really worried about it. I've made a really silly careless mistake for my Math test... I'm gonna get it from my lecturer...Arghh... better be prepared for it... Sobz... Need to start concentrating on my studies which... the mood hasn't come yet.. Awww... I better start moving. Time flies as what my counsellor said to me.

And Hann... I always call you HANN kies... Don't say I didn't. If I ever forget you I won't even bother to surprise you. Blerk... So conclusion I didn't forget you alright... HANN!!!-Clear enough for you to see. Haha =P

Supposely I planned to go to Church today but because of MyBro saying that we're going back so I didn't really thought that the plan would be cancelled. I missed Church... Uh~ I really need to settle down. It's already February. Guys.. Help!!!

Right now there's nothing in my mind. Guess I'll just go off... and study for my Chemistry. Till then~

Oppss... Not to forget..

Congratulation to MyDearMyles. Yeay~ You did it. My future income guarantee. Hahaha...But too bad no 'SquareHat'. It's okay, I'll be there for the official Convo. Hahaha... The major one. Not minor. Blerk. Really man. You've done a great job. I'm really proud of you. All the best in UK ya... Prepare for my arrival too. Wahahah... XD

Love,

Alyssa-Cross~xoxo~

Class Starts

Class stared on 2nd of February 2009. I'm still in the holiday mood. I was back in KL on Saturday morning. My blog was late because I don't have internet at MyHome. So sad. Usually I will online at MyCollege or Friend'sHouse or Brother'sPlace or...CyberCafe. That's all the places I can online. Basically, I won't be updating MyBlog that often for now. Almost everyday I had meeting with ALSCO ADHOC which always caused me to go back late. It's tiring actually. I always got to wait until almost night only I will reach home. So in the mean time I will be studying in the library. MyCollege has a great library, full of books. You can just get any source there. I actually kind of like MyCollege's Library, that is why I don't mind staying back waiting for transport to go home. It actually motivates me to study there. O well... that's a good thing to me. Cheerz~

I really got to work hard for my studies, otherwise...I'm doom. It's kind of stressing to me. I'm having hard time to cope up especially when I stop studying for a year. I'm so not used to it. God!!! Please help me. Trying to pull myself together all the time. Sometimes I feel like giving up, but... I can't. MyParents will be very disappointed. Pray that I can make it through.

For now I'm planning to join a cell group to fit in my time as well as keeping in touch with God. Otherwise... I definately will... draw away for God again...O my... I don't want that. No No... I must got to church. Church Church CHURCH!!!

There's so many things for me to do out of sudden. Too much to think. I really need a time planner. O gosh... Set a goal for my future. Gambateh-YOSH~ To all out there... All the best for a New Year-as in CNY- XD

Love,

Alyssa-Cross~xoxo~