I Don't Care Anymore!

Just in a month,anything can happen.Another 1 month,my results will be out.I'm nervous,thinking about it,yet...there's so much more bothering me.Problems and obstacles that I need to overcome.Trying real hard,putting in much effort...but I still can't find the solution.Remain unsolved,new ones come around.It feels like...my mind is gonna explode.I wasn't thinking right at all.I don't know what am I talking.What did I say?I desperately need help,guidance,to get out of it.I don't want to think no more.Don't want to care anymore.Let it be who you are...I don't even bother wanting to know you.I hate you for how you treated me.I don't know what you want.

What are you thinking?

What are you expecting?

What are you feeling?

WHO ARE YOU???

Indescribable feelings~

My blog has gone 'rusty' for months without being updated.Well I'm back!!!Over the past few months,I've been rather busy with my studies and church.And now I've finished my A-levels,which I really felt a big relief though for a moment.Bet I'll started to worry about my results.Basically...I think I didn't do well in some papers yet I can't do anything about it.Might as well just appreciate the time I have now as my result will be out in January.
Right after my last paper,I've attended Emerge-The Rising,organised by my church,City Harvest in Sunway Convention Centre.The grand opening was awesome.Spot lights everywhere.It was like a huge party.I'm so glad that dear Ivy enjoy it so much where she found the answers to her life.Continue to pray that she will open up her heart towards Jesus Christ.

*****MayGodBlessDearIvy*****
As for me,the moment I always been waiting for...the Word Of God.Rev.Dr.KongHee was the preacher.All the sermons really impacted me.God answered my prayer-I've been praying for the last few months.It gaves me assurance on the dreams I want to pursue.Still...I need to pray hard for confirmation.Moreover,I've learnt the importance of having the characters in order to achieve my dreams,moulding good characters in me.Everything got to have a first time.If I don't work it out,what's the point of even thinking about it?Keep up the spirit and start making all things new^^All this bring me closer to God.I've experienced God's peace,exceed anything that I can understand.Praying is indeed powerful!!!
Emerge caused me to love MyChurch,MyPastor,MyCellLeader&TheMembers more.I feel more attached to MySpiritualFamily.I finally understand the principle of being commited and loyal and why not only towards God,but also MyChurch,MyCellLeader,TheMembers&Relationships I have with people around me.I bet my life will never be the same again.Am ready for all the challenges to be successful in the eyes of God.

*****SomeBooksI'veBoughtToBuildUpMySpiritualLife*****
Many things have changed in my life over the past few months.I've learn a lot and grown(I think...well at least I learn something~) in many aspects.I begin to appreciate people around me who brought happiness into my life,tought me how to be a better person in life.Of course there are ups and downs during these period.I've struggled...and...I think I overcomed it.I don't know how well I've solved all the problems but at least...it's not bothering me anymore.I feel very blessed for having such a wonderful people around me who truly love and trust me especially my parents and brothers.Thanks to those who encourages me all the time whenever I fall into the deepest valley that I can hardly stand up again,for those who brings lots of fun and joy into my life,those who does not judge me and love me for who I am.

*****LearningToLoveMyself*****
I've grown so much more in Christ.I guess I can never live without Christ.I've never been so serious about it...but being a part of W19 tought me how awesome is MyGod.I feel accepted again by Him and not haunted by my past anymore.I will stay firm and strong in Him,I shall not be influenced by people who always try to bring me down and apart from God.His peace will guard my heart and mind as I live in Christ Jesus.
*****W19-WhoBringsSunshineToMyLife*****
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Love,
Alyssa-Cross~xoxo~

11th Anniversary

*****Happy11thAnniversary*****

The day that we were looking forward to finally came.It's my 11th Anniversary with Dear.Well actually it supposed to be on 29th of May.Due to some reasons we always post-poned it.Anyway...we'll never missed our anniversay ^^ Right after college,I waited for Dear to come over to my home.We decided to go to Sunway Pyramid because of the traffic and it's more convenient for me.We bought our cake and off we went to pyramid.

Lunch a.k.a anniversary celebration at Canton-i.Our choice was Pasta Zan Mai,Dragon-i,Canto-i and Italianese.Well I prefered Canto-i so...that's it^^We ordered our food there and everyone looked so weird to us because we were the one making funny actions and 'noises' there.Anyway...who cares.We just enjoyed ourselves.Veisen,our camare-man...officially joined our anniversary today onwards.Which means...every year 3 of us will be celebrating together.Cheers to our friendship-wee~We ordered 'piggy-pao'...represented me and Dear =P

*****Piggy-Pao*****

Here comes our food.Ordered by all of us with each others' agreement...LOL XD

*****Carrot-cake*****

*****Canto-iFamousPorridge*****

*****MixPork-OurFavourite*****

*****MangoDessert*****

*****Clean&Clear^^*****

We shared everything together.That's what true friendship are meant to be.

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*****Me&Dear*****

*****Newbie~*****

*****WishUponThe-Candles*****

*****1...2...3...BLOW~*****
Loving each other and sharing our happy-sad-up-down moments all the time.We're always proud of each other.Rejoice for each others success and happiness.

*****YummY*****

*****CaPu~*****

Jealousy will break a friendship bond which is a NO-NO to us.Yeay!

*****3-Mousquetaire*****

No matter what happens,Dear is always there for me.That's the one thing I'm always grateful for...the existence of Dear in MyLife.Even though we did not meet often...maybe once a month or even once in 6 months,but love never fails for us as we love each other deeply truly from the bottom of our hearts.This relationship is priceless to me.Dear~Love you lots.

*****KissxSis*****

Love,

Alyssa-Cross~xoxo~

Reasons Of Friendship Break

True enough.

Is it very true how deos a friendship breaks?

Both friends will think the other is busy.

And will not contact.

Thinking that it may be disturbing.

As time passes by,

both will think let the other contact first.

After that each will think why should I contact first?

From here onwards,

Your love will be converted to hatred.

Finally without contact your memory becomes weak.

They forget each other.

How actually does a person treasures a FRIEND?

People are getting more and more materialistic.

Sincerity just won't make a friendship last.

Is this what a friendship meant to be?

What does a friendship meant to you?

A question to be thought and answered.

Love,

Alyssa-Cross~xoxo~

Good Friday-Holy Saturday-Easter Sunday

It's Good Friday.Woot~It was the first time my church having 5 services for Easter.It's incredible.Overall...I really enjoyed my Easter celebration.I attended the Friday night service because this was the day that my cell group pick.I invited Hann to join me for the service.Oppss...by the way Hann is my new housemate.Wee~Finally I have a housemate.There's more to come XD.

When I reached church and I'm almost late due to the traffic-jam,everyone was queueing up.It was a long queue hoping that I will manage to get into the hall as I didn't want to miss anything.I can say that...God really loves me a whole lots.I got to pass by with no reasons and I'm in the hall.Wee~I'm blessed with a seat at the front which was really cool.
We started of with praise and worship.Followed up by Easter Drama.The drama was marvelous.Presence of God was overwhelming.It seemed so real to me.To those who knows what happened,you know what I meant(^.~)We had cell group gathering for a while before we took off for 'dinner'.I bought two 'Easter eggs' since it was the last two(It's actually the Kinder Joy chocolate egg)One given to Faith,MyCellGroupLeader and the other one for baby.I can say that I had a wonderful Good Friday^^

*****It'sAnAwesomeEaster*****
As for Holy Saturday,I actually didn't plan to go for the another service.Out of no where,I just feel like going.I brought along my friend,XingOnn to join me.Before we went to church,we had our dinner at Bubba Gump Shrimp.Co in Sunway Pyramid just to eat.Man...I love the Alabama Mud-pie so so much.Yummy~He's such a dear friend of mine.Wonderful buddy...who always treat me like I owned the whole world.It's always 'MyDay' whenever he's around.Heart you lots^^
Well...today I'm early for the service.As usual I need to queue up.I met some of my cell groups members bringing their friends and also...a few of old school-mates.It's a surprise though.Tonight's service was great,especially during praise and worship.Even OnnOnn had fun...wee~glad you did.We were hoping to have more fun...but it was over the time that we expected...well...definately,I feel joy all the way and all of us had fun.It was totally different from the 1st service I attended.Undescribable.I'm glad that I made it to the service.God indeed a great Father.He'll never let us down.Cheerz~

*****MyEasterEgg-FromOnnOnn*****

*****TheCuteGirls-TheyJustMakeMeLookCute*****

*****SistersInChrist*****

Love,
Alyssa-Cross~xoxo~

Grandmama's Birthday

*****QueenOfMyHeart*****

Home sweet home on Friday night,3rd April 2009.On my way back.Mommy called and told me...'Today we are celebrating Grandmama's birthday.Can you make it on time?' I stunted.What???Now only she told me.I definately gonna missed it=( O well...Nevermind...at least I made it for cake-cutting ceremony^^Aunts and uncles were all back for the birthday celebration.And the moment I'm waiting for...to eat the cake...Wee~It's always my favourite moment.Cake baked by DaGu,decorated with Royal Icing instead of the normal butter cream or mousse.Delicious~

*****Don'tJudgeByHowItLooks-BestCakeEver*****
Grandmama was so happy to see me.We talk like there's no end.(Even though we've been talking the same conversation over again and again) But it doesn't matter.What really counts is that I accompanied her with all the time I had back in Sitiawan.^^

*****She'sActingCute^^*****

Time to leave and Grandmama was crying...she didn't want me to go back to KL.It made my heart sank back then=(

*****Sweet-estMomentOfMyLife*****

*****BeingWithGrandmama*****

*****HappilyTalkingToMe&Mommy*****

*****QueensOfMyHeart*****

I'll miss her so much when I get back to KL.Sobbie~

*****Happy-87th-BirthdayGrandmama*****

*****Love-Now-Always&Forever*****

Love,

Alyssa-Cross~xoxo~

Home~

I'm going home...O Yea...Mommy is calling me from time to time...asking me the same question-"Are you coming back?"I've been answering it again and again...Guess she's waiting for my arrival now.Wee~but...MOCK exam is coming soon,Thursday and Friday =( Anyway let's forget about it first.Will come to that when I reach home.

Cell group was yesterday.Yes.It was fun indeed,being in the midst of God with all the brothers and sisters.Thanks for the concern about how have I been these days and also...all the sms'es^^I've learnt about being a joyful person as a child of God.Well I guess it's time to change.Be a happy child.After all I am happy with my life.Should I say be happier in all times?(^.~)

Home =

• Mommy&Daddy&BabyBro...Grandmama.YES!!!I can't wait to see her.Miss her so so so much.
• Home-cooked meals.Owhh~Craving for it.
• MyComfyRoom.
• MyPledge...of course.Must not forget about that.Almost actually.Am struggling about it.

Lastly...Got to remind myself.

I need to PUSH PUSH PUSH and PUSH.

Have a lovely weekends guys.

Love,

Alyssa-Cross~xoxo~

A Surprise

Class ended at 1400 right after exam.About that~I got no comment.It's totally...out.I don't know what answers I wrote down.It doesn't make sense at all...anyhow I managed to fill in all the blanks rather than leaving it empty.Gosh~I got to brush up for my Chem.I've got no idea why the hack I pick science subjects-.-Even in the midst of exams I was playing sms with a few of my buddies-.- Unbelievable.Believe it(^.^)Wondering why?Because I didn't know how to answer.Lol...I'm facing a terrible week these days.My mood was down for the past week...I got angry very easily...until today I realised...why am I having such a bad mood-swing?It's an un-told secret.I'm not going to tell you =P

I've got a surprise this morning~Obento prepared with love and care for me to bring to college.So so sweet~No picture of it~I don't bring camera to college umkayss!!!I enjoyed my meal of course...after my exams.I'm starving by then.I'm making a wish now-Make me one everyday(>.<)-

Tonight I'm supposed to join the Caring System organized by my church but...I couldn't make it.So sad.I've got too many tutorial to be done and assignment too.*Sigh*

Well then looking forward for tomorrow.No idea for what reason.

Love,

Alyssa-Cross~xoxo~

A Week With Family

Mommy,Daddy and BabyBro was out in KL to meet me and Kor for the weekend.That's the plan at first.I'm excited that they were coming to KL just to see how my life in KL is-which is kind of stressful to me.It was supposed to be a holiday for them,unfortunately BabyBro fell sick on Friday night.

The next day we brought him to consult two doctors as the first one wasn't that effective.In the end he was admitted to Sunway Medical Centre for 3 days.Poor boy but it seems like he's rather happy staying in there because he can watch his cartoons all the time-.- Daddy was looking after him for these days while me and Mommy when for shopping.Shop for household stuff.Not as in 'SHOPPING'.

Finally on Tuesday,BabyBro was allowed to go home at last and it was his birthday.Wee~Happily he wanted to go shopping so we brought him to Sunway Pyramid(His choice) to buy him his birthday presents.

*****TheBirthdayBoy*****

Since everyone was having a great time shopping I wouldn't miss out any chances to shop too.Bad girl shop again.I bought a top and a pair of heels.Thanks Mommy.I had a great time spending with MyFamily.It seems like they are staying in KL.

Sadly they were going back on Wednesday.Before departed home,Mommy and Daddy came all the way to my college to pick me up for breakfast.So sweet~Last meeting before we need to be apart again.Sobbie~Let's not look at the negative part,overall it was the greatest time of all ever since I'm out in KL studying.Chillz~

*****Lighting-UpHisOwnCandle*****

*****HappyFamily*****

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*****BabyOfTheFamily*****

*****He'sTryingToGobbleUpHisCake*****

*****HappyBirthdayBabyBro*****

Love,

Alyssa-Cross~xoxo~